its pathetic knowing that i cant even finish 2.4 without walking. Where on earth is my stamina, i want it back, i really do!
I PROMISE, I WILL RUN AT LEAST 3 TIMES A WEEK. I SO PROMISE!
And the thought of that pile of work waiting for me really makes me insane. ):
I SO NEED BETTER TIME MANAGEMENT! ):

On a happier note, band camp was quite well done! (: YAY ME, YAY YOU! (:

I need to rant, i so need to.

Life has been a bitch totally! November is going to be over in a few days time and honestly, till today, ive only had 1 day that i got to rest at home without having to go to school. Im totally drained off because of band and track and camps and tuitions and homework. I dont understand why must he do that?! Cant he tell we put in alot of time and effort in it!? I told ____ that if we had to plan a camp, i want it to be a fun and educational one. The 8 of us, started off very committed and determined to do a good job. I was so looking forward to the day. Weeks after weeks, we never had our minds off it, i spend so many hours, in front of the comp typing proposals after proposals, i could have been enjoying myself! We cancelled our own appointments just to turn up for meetings, i make my committee come down to school at 7am in the morning on a holiday. ALL SO BECAUSE WE WANT TO DO IT WELL, WE WANT TO DO SOMETHING OF QUALITY AND NOT JUST SLIP SHOT WORK! However, just 4 days before the actual day, YOU had to dash our dream camp, spoil our idea, waste our effort. I fully understand that it wasnt your idea to change it, but firstly, if you knew that something had to change, that you could kindly tell us earlier so we wont have to work like cows and end up dumping our work into the drain like fools. Next, you could have spoke up for us, perhaps he isnt sure of what the situation is like. Your actions today just shows us how much you value and respect us. Im really disappointed and upset with whatever's going on. Im not gonna comment anymore here, since its open to public and whichever tom dick and harry can view it. I've still got lots to say, and i will say, even if that means that im going to be the worst drum major youve ever met. We've work hard for it, we deserve something more than that.

And even if the whole world's crashing, daddy, mummy, korkor and darling will be more than enough.

Touch beyond words

CALL ME THE HAPPIEST KID NOW, INDEED I AM! (:

Dear Readers, the following content might not be suitable for your eyes, so kindly stop here (:

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Dear Bob, Thank you a million billion for the letter and that, as pretty as me, flower. (KIDDING!)

Haha, well done on completing 18 circles, they aint that bad, im sure your drawing is improving! (: I almost cried while reading the letter okayyyyy! And you need to promote your delivery woman! She didnt slack at all, she came here under the storming rain and i was late. ): whoops, sorry! 3 days past only, feels like 100 centuries already, faster come back lahhh! ): But since you cant, then have more fun there okay! (: Well, im sure youre enjoying yourself alot. Staring at hot angmohs. xD Anyway, i think your actions has help increase your reputation, now one more person thinks youre nice! Heehee. Im gonna end off here, if i continue writing, i'll probably flood my whole house. ): Thanks alot alot for everything for the past 8184 hours! ( Im learning to be a nerd just like you! xD ) HAPPY 12-1=11 MONTH TOO DARLING! (: And same to you, if youre smart enough to read this : UOY EVOL I. :P

* I hope youve got internet connection there

With much love,

Jessica ( FAR FAR FAR AWAY IN SINGAPORE.)

How much i hate farewells

IM BACK FROM OBS! (:

Alive as ever, i made it! Through the rain and the sun , JESSICA CONQUER PULAU UBIN! (:

Heh! OBS was a splendid experience, learnt alot and did many cool stuff! (: However i must say, the night spent at the forest was really something i would never do again! Totally scared me to my wits! ): And Im gonna declare something, i pee-d 4 times during OBS ( at proper toilets) and changed behind a bush! heehee! (:

Seriously uhhh, the toilet smell... indescribable pungent! And i was rushing for time so i changed behind the bush. xD Well, its 5 am in the morning, sky still pretty dark, everyone still blur blur as they just woke up, and as the Nike motto says' JUST DO IT' and i did it (:

Right, enough of OBS because my eyes are shutting soon. I got to catch up with my studies! ): Im lagging so far behind and i really do feel worried, but what can i do when my body is always not cooperating with me. ): NONO, i'll start studying, yes i must!

Gotta rest now, still have to go for flag day tommorow, then to the dentist, and hopefully can see darling once more before he's off to New Zealand. ): Indeed, how much i hate farewells! ): Last week, i had to bid farewell to the 35th NCOs, today was to my OBS mates, tomorrow will be to Bob. ): Sigh, have fun love! And i cant wait for Tuesday! What surprise you have for me? What's up your sleeves again!?

POP tomorrow. Im having mixed feelings about it. Lord, i pray that you send the sun out, please do not rain tomorrow, otherwise, my effort for the past 4 days, will be all washed by the rain. ):

Bye for now, gotta wash up.

Till then!

Advice : If you have guts the same size as mine, stay at home during halloween.

I'll go straight to my reasons for that. I didnt know there was halloween celebration at downtown east, so my family was there for dinner. After my sumptuous 2 hour long buffet, we went for some shopping. Yours truly was standing outside the shop reading a signboard, when a OH-SO-TALL werewolf stood behind me, i turned back and saw a gang of bloody, headless, legless, handless vampires, dracula coming towards me. And so, i screamed and run into the shop where my parents were.

Second reason, the next time i left the shop, i on my 'self defence mood' and was very wary of my surrounding. Then a blood dripping witch came behind me, and upon seeing her, i mumbled under my breath ' BITCH'. Well, it was human reaction...

Anyway, today was fine other than the extraordinary evening at Mount Faber with darling. (: What a great exercise climbing up to the top, and chatting under the pretty blue sky. (: Sigh, NCO camp tomorrow, hopefully i make it, alive still.

I KNOW BOB'S READING THIS : THANK YOU FOR THE AWESOME EVENING. (: I'LL MISS YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE NEXT 5 DAYS. HAVE FUN IN SCHOOL. (: YAY. I LOVE YOU BABY. (: ~ HUGGGGG~

Happiest Kid on Earth

ONCE AGAIN, I GOT TO EMPHASIZE, GOD HAS DONE A MIRACLE IN MY LIFE! YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! Im sorry, im not someone who can keep my happiness to myself, ive got to jump jump jump and scream scream scream, so kindly pardon me for that. HEEHEE! Yup, ive finally gotten back my report book, after many sleepless nights and nightmare. GEEZ. Im so glad i can finally see God's work in my life, well, it might not be that fantastic, but at least, i managed to hit my personal target. So YAY ME! (: HEEHEE! Alright, i know there's a gang out there that's gonna get me, because they told me right straight into my face. ' WE WILL BEAT JESSICA CAUSED SHE'S MISSING 2 WEEKS OF BRIDGING COURSE!!! * bright wide grins*' Its okay, we shall see! (: Anyway, for now ive got to prepare my heart, calm my soul, enlighten my mind, gear up my body, because NCO camp is just 2 days away! Im sure its gonna be really tiring, with 6 hours of footdrills and macework everyday. HEEHEE, goodbye, i need to replenish my sleep!

im glad ive proven you wrong. Who says your board doesnt take up my time, doesnt affect my studies!? IVE MADE IT, succccckkkka.

So cute rightttt! (:

Wendy, Niyi and Fankai vandalised my hand during free periods today. GEEZ!
Gotta wash up now.

Goodbye peeps! (:

Freak Accident

Im a living testimony of a car crash, and i so thank God for keeping me alive. (: Yesterday we were supposed to head to Mandai Crematory to pray for my grandfather, but so near yet so far, mummy and i and my cousin's family didnt make it there. ): Fortunately non of us were badly injured. One more turn before we reached and a Mitsubishi Lancer crash right into the back of my uncle's car. What more could it be, it was 9 in the morning, there were no cars on that deserted road (mind you, we were at Mandai) , obviously he was speeding, looking at the car and the driver, conclusion, ahbeng. The impact was pretty hard, but at the beginning i didnt thought it was an accident, i thought my uncle drove over a tree branch or something. Then i turn back and saw the whole bonnet flipped open, and a little view of a white car, smoking. And thats when i realised it was a car accident, dont ask me why i didnt hear any bang sound, ive no idea too. But another uncle of mine, who was driving in front, claim that it was very loud, well i supposed it should be. So the police came, the ambulance came and we were send to the hospital. And honestly, if i was bleeding or something, i'll definitely have died, really! The journey from Mandai to TanTockSengHospital was so freaking long, plus a slight traffic jam. But ive got to say Singaporeans are really considerate because they made way for the ambulance which made me feel pretty much like a VIP. Hah. Reach the hospital where they took my blood pressure, alot of times i must emphasized. Because it was too low, and the nurse got kinda fed up and she just said, " Aiya, small girl never mind one lah" Great, very professional indeed. :/ When for Xray and everything was fine, thankfully. (: Reached home at around 4pm and i slept till this morning.

Aint doing anything much today. Wanted to go ice skating, but my neck's kinda scrampish and the journey there is so so so long. Sorry darling ): Yup, im gonna find other forms of entertainment, goodbye peeps (:

PS. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WIN THE MONSTER (:

God's Grace

By God's grace, ive managed to pull through the exams, still alive and kicking! (: Im so glad everything is over, results were all out today, well well, not very satisfying, but the thought of the effort ive put in, i think i deserve to learn a lesson. Sigh. But for now, ive got more things to do then to moan over my pathetic results. Im so gonna work harder after this, I PROMISE! And trust me, its not worth falling sick during the exams. I almost had to go to the hospital cause i was suffering from dehydration. :/ And it wasnt just a day of paper that's gone, the next day's paper was greatly affected too. Perhaps, God had a better plan for me, and i guess he gave me a good miracle. (: OH, and Cheeleong stole my english crown! ): MEANO~ i just need that one mark moreee. BOOBOO! Alright, shall not bore any souls with my horrid exam tales, that is if anyone still comes here.

And now im worrying about my bridging programme, i'll be missing like both weeks because of NCO camp and OBS, ( oh, did i mention Guoen gave up his place to me, i cant be more grateful than ever! ) Heehee, im kinda excited about OBS but at the same time, im feeling kinda nervy. I mean, my mom born me without much guts, maybe i was too hungry and ive eaten it up or whatsoever but still, IM GOING! (: Pray that i come back alive, with 4 limbs and one brain. (:

Still in the process of doing the band camp, i hope everything goes well, i really hope so! So you can tell how busy i would be, there goes my holiday, again! ):

Umm, ever since exams were over, ive been movie marathon-ing! (: Haha! I think im very deprived of fun, makes me feel like some kampung lady! ): Geeez!

So ive watched, (500) days of summer, Cloudy with a chance of meatballs, Haeundae, the deadly tsunami and G-force! (: I think Haeundae was really fantastic, it was so so touching, but i managed to hold back my tears. HAHA! Cloudy with a chance of meatballs was cool too, but it made me really hungry during the show. I wish that could happen in real life, roads covered with ice cream, pizzas, chicken wings and everything good dropping from the sky. AH! My stomach just grumbled! (500) days of summer was like those normal romance comedy, not too bad though, but the cinema was freezing. And G force was brilliant too, i watched it at Great World City, and after the show, i headed to the pet shop beside it, surprisingly there were lesser Guinea pigs than before! Hahah, maybe some were used for the show. xD

Alright, ive writen a whole chuck of things, time for me to head to bed! Training's tomorrow, i feel so unfit, reallly really! ):